kerna ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

salam,

ble d semak congak kira balik arr an .. rupa rupa nyer post for tis month asek bermotif an emo je an .. hahaha .. so called bulan emo sedunia .. lala

so tok melengkap an lagi post post emo nieh , bbc nak bagi lirik lagu lak .. hehe :D

Seberapa salahkah diriku
Hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku
Inikah caramu membalas
aku yang slalu ada saat kau terluka

Seberapa hinanya diriku
Hingga kau ludahi
semua yang ku beri untukmu
Tak ada satu pun perasaan
Yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagi ku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Telah ku coba segala cara
tuk bahagiakan kamu merebut hatimu
Namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan
Bila kau tak inginkan ku tuk disisimu

Tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
Menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa
Mengartikan diriku bahwa ku mampu berlalu

sejujurnya laaa an .. bbc sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat ok cukup orang da paham da ko sangat terlalu bbc .! ngeng .! terasa dengan ini lagu .. huhu .. setepek kena batang idung laaaa .. huk huk huk



nota kechik chumel : sorry seems to be the hardest word

..bulan bintang capricorn..

cintaku tak harus miliki dirimu

salam,

when it is only between u and me
we can be perfect match in the world wide

when it is only between u and me
we can understand each other more

when it is only between u and me
we can communicate well although our mouth shut

when it is only between u and me
we can share everything
talk everything

when it is only between u and me
we can feel like there is only u and me in the world without others

but
it's only happen when it is between u and me

when it come to the people in our surrounding
we hurt each other
we hate each other
we never talk to each other
we react like we never know each other
like stranger.!!

i'm not good with word
so watch out my gesture
by that you'll know how much i care about u
how much i miss u
how much hurt i get when you're right in front of my eyes but i never can hold u
and
how much i love you
yes ,
i do.!!

i just miss my past
all of sudden
out of blue

..bulan bintang capricorn..

dilamun rindu

salam,

tiba-tiba rasa macam dilamun rindu ..

mengapa ketika bila aku sendirian
terkenang kenangan waktu kita bersama
pilu rasa hati bila engkau tiada di sisi

indah waktu itu bila engkau di sampingku
seakan dunia milik kita berdua
kini kau tiada hanya aku di lamun rindu

mengapa kau menghilangkan dirimu
katakanlah salahku
sehingga kau hancurkan hidupku

berikanlah kesempatan
untuk aku menjelaskan
agar engkau kan fahami
apa yang telah terjadi
tak perlu kau meragui
ketulusan hati ini
kerna ku di salah mengerti

tidak pernah ku terlintas
untuk aku meduakan
kerna ku telah berjanji
cinta kita kan abadi

tak perlu kau mengkhianati
cinta yang tulus dan murni
di atas tohmahan orang lain

indah waktu itu bila engkau di sampingku
seakan dunia milik kita berdua
kini kau tiada hanya aku di lamun rindu

i miss you all of sudden dont know why

..bulan bintang capricorn..

i hate it when i must love it

salam,

niat da lme nk tulis entry sal nieh tapi asik hold je .. biase laaa an .. de bende laen yg lg penting .. ngee

balik weekend arituh tak g mane2 pown .. mengapa .??? da jadi baek stok mithali dok umah je .?? oh tidaaakkk .. ekceli i lost my purse .. i dun have any idea where i lost it or where i put it after i realize it lost ( ko x sedar ke ko ulang ulang ayat same je bbc .??? haha .. watever.!! )

ramai owg kate bbc releks je ble bnde yg penting camtuh ilang .. hurm .. nak wat cmne an .. kalo bbc meraung raung ke , terjerit jerit ke , bukan purse tuh ley tgedek gedek dtg balik kat bbc an .. bende tuh tetap ilang so pe point nak jerit-jerit , raung-raung tuh sume .. waste my time .. aha..now ko blagak gileee bbc ..

hurm .. dalam purse tuh de koman laaa an : i/c , lesen , atm card , cash n ol my valuable stuff .. yg laen cam atm card , lesen , i/c tuh ley laaa replace .. tapi yang valuable stuff tuh mane nak cari .????? hurm .. redha je laaa an .. de hikmah dat things ilang .. dats mean u must forget everything from ur past bbc .. let it go ..

ok laaa .. tak mo cite daa sal bende tuh .. tak menarik an .. hurm

so in mean time dok umah tuh , bbc bc novel .. tuh je laa pown yang make ur smile back an .. hehe .. my sis nisa pinjam novel PELANGI from her frens .. ktowg da beli VERSUS tyme pesta buku arituh but bbc tak baca lagi sbb nak baca ked's story dulu .. cite between dua tuh de kne mngene an so let 1st be 1st n after dats bru bc versus ..

so cam biase laaa an .. tiap kali baca karya hlovate , msty rasa membuak-buak je nak wat entry baru tok muhasabah diri .. huhu


i really falling in luv ngan ked flop .. hurm .. gaya cam tak falling in love lak ngan along , benz n jade an ..

tapi rasa tuh cam lagi kuat tok ked .. hurm ..

daripada ked , bbc blaja : relationship ada 1 ending je , which is marriage ..

memang jodoh , pertemuan tuh di tangan-Nya tapi love is not come out in trial and error method ..

itu yang bbc blaja dari Ked .. simple tapi cukup trasa ..

bbc wat conclusion :

- lelaki yang baek hanya tok perempuan yang baek

- people say dont judge a book by its cover .. but when the cover almost tell everything inside , u r such a egomaniac to deny it

- susah untuk membuat langkah pertama tapi once u did it , the next step will be easier ..

bbc nak lelaki yang macam ked , tapi bbc sikit pown tak de refleks nawal ..
bbc nak lelaki yang macam jade , tapi bbc tak pernah cuba tok berubah cam trisy ..
bbc nak lelaki yang macam benz , tapi bbc tak sebaik addin ..
bbc nak lelaki yang macam along , tapi bbc tak ade ciri-ciri macam jo ..

so.?????

jadilah macam nawal , trisy , addin and jo klo nak laki cam ked , jade , benz and along

eyh

bukan laaaa .. hahaha

start ur 1st move and u'll regret it

insyallah

..bulan bintang capricorn..

its hurt..really hurt

salam,

kadang-kadang an bila terlalu banyak yang bertanya ,

kadang-kadang an bila terlalu banyak yang memberi pendapat ,

kadang-kadang an bila terlalu banyak yang ambil tahu ,

kadang-kadang an bila terlalu banyak yang ' sok tau ' ,

buat kita rasa macam penat , lelah , bosan , benci , sakit hati , geram dan macam-macam lagi..

memang bukan salah meraka..

tapi rasa itu..

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs

i never needed pain,i never needed strenght

My love for you was strong enough you should've known

I never needed you for judgement

I never needed you to question what i spent

I never ask for help, I take care of myself,

I don't know why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations

There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how i act to what i say

i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way i let go

Of everything i wanted when you came along

But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated

I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations

There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

cukup-cukuplah..!!

sudahlah..!!

hentikanlah..!!

kadang-kadang kata-kata boleh menjerut rasa yang sakit sakit sangat..i know that..and because of that , i can't say what i feel because i'm too afraid to hurt you..yes..its wrong..but how can i express it in the right way.?? tell me.?? teach me.?? please....

they said that i've never learn from my mistake..i'm still me..who are heartless..but u know why am i like this.?? no right.? let me tell you..for me , its better silent if word can hurt..even at the end you'll hurt by yourself..its ok for me..

rasa itu sakit ,

kenangan itu perit ,

kata-kata itu lemah ,

and me.??

people keep blame on me

what you want actually.?

keep telling to the world how hurt i'm done for you.??

don't you know people keep an eye on us.??

don't you realize you hurt me deep inside silently.??

people keep thinking i'm cruel by doing all those thing to you

but for me , myself , you are more cruel

by all you done from the first till now and forever i think

seriuosly you hurt me ,

..bulan bintang capricorn..